So I finally DID something.
I went to foster care parent orientation last night and actually started filling out the application.
I've really realized lately that I have this strong desire to work with kids and do service. Foster care seems a good way to start.
And I am so tired of all the messages - past and present - telling me I can't do it. I refuse to fail any longer because I didn't even try. Defeating myself through self-talk and inaction only drives me into despair and depression. Foster care may turn out to be the worst idea I've ever had - but it's my idea and I want to try. After all, if not me then who?